Monday, August 17, 2020

Livin' stuff (Edited!)

Had to edit this a bit. Somehow, some way, Allie made it clear that this thing was missing some Dave Matthews. That's my girl!

I feel compelled to post some of these images and videos. I hope you can keep in mind that this thing isn't only tragedy. There's that, and sorrow by the ocean-full, but there is also great love and joy and a shining beacon of hope. Allie is still with us in our hearts and she is and will continue to walk with all of us always. I have a feeling she is revelling in her new ability to be everywhere at once.

Family and children. 

Alone time around the corner. Close to everyone but out of sight and with time to play and process in her own in her own way. At two years old, none of this makes sense. Just like it makes no sense to the rest of us.

Nature's beauty the morning after.

Allie loved flowers and was especially taken by mid-summer sunflowers.

And of course, Pronghorn.

Just playing.

Camp chair, tent, dogs.

I cannot even begin to express how much your kind words, thoughts, and prayers mean to all of us. You lift us up with your love and caring. You all, each and every one of you, have and will continue to touch our hearts in a deeply profound way. God Bless You All and thank you so very much.

Be well and embrace the blessings of liberty.


  1. This came up as a sixth year memory; thought it apropos:
    “There are emotions and attitudes that transcend language“

  2. I can't watch the videos right now, Kristin is working and our internet won't support me watching videos and her work; but I'll get to them as soon as I can.

    I know I'm a long way away, but if I can do anything for you, let me know.

    Thanks for the post.
    Paul L. Quandt

    1. Good videos, as usual. The children seem to be doing well, at least in the videos.

      My best to all.

    2. Kids are doing well. It's very hard for them but they are working through things in their own way and with tons of loving support. It's a storm but we will weather it.

  3. My heart bleeds for you.

    I saw the videos you posted in the weeks leading up to here and knew there was a dramatic change in your life. I was looking forward to it although nowhere near as much as you were. Abide with God for he surely abides with you.
    very respectfully, Curtis

    1. Thanks so much Curtis. We were so looking forward to a life together but it just didn't happen. What little we had was beautiful and Allie is still walking with us. It'll be okay and we've got a big full life of adventure to live here while Allie supervises from a different plane.

  4. Get up each day and start putting one foot in front of the other. I know no other way.

    1. That's it. Move forward or lay down and die. As Gus McCrae put it, it ain't dyin' I'm talkin' about, it's livin'! I choose to live.

      Thanks so much for stopping by and commenting!

  5. All you can do is carry on. Thinking of you a lot these days.

    1. Thanks so very much Sarge! And big congratulations on your new grandson! Such a wonderful thing!